Some Support for the newbie?

[Jazz5696]

I am just about to finish up the school year and exams are just a few days away. I'm so stressed out, i'm finding it harder to stop eating.
i'm not fat, i'm just chubby but i know everyday i'm just digging myself down deeper. A couple months ago i was doing so good! i had just joined the rugby team and we had two hour practices five days a week...but then the weekend came and i gained back all that i lost and then the cycle just continued. I ate two packages of oatmeal and ribs with some veg today. But i don't want to stop! I even asked myself, am i hungry...no, do i want to eat...yes! I haven't so far but theres so much strain. I..need support, i can't do this on my own, all my friends are either super skinny and eat like a fatty, which in turn influences me to, or just eat whatever and are super confident about how they look. I hate myself, i look in the mirror and feel disgusted. I try to paint my face with makeup and drown myself in baggy sweatshirts. Because i know that people talk about chubby people and judge them, i have and still do. When their clothes are waay to tight everyone notices. i'm bored, i eat, sad i eat, happy, i eat...whatever i feel food makes it better! i'm sick and tired and so fed up with my body,i've tried reaching out to family and friendsand they think im joking.."you're not fat" thats all they say! "but i AM chubby" they never reply, i'm spiralling downwards and i wont be able to stop if i don do something now..help?

[TYGtoday]

Dear Jazz,
Welcome to Food Addicts Anonymous! Thanks for sharing what's going on with you around food. It does remind me a lot of how I've felt in the past~ I've felt so out of control and frightened because I didn't see how I COULD get some control around all of this! Well, I learned that I'm a food addict, and I never will, in and of myself, be able to control certain foods. The foods I'm talking about are all forms of sugar, flour, and wheat. When I put them in my body, it triggers and addictive response and I want to just keep eating because of uncontrollable physical cravings. You also mentioned eating over emotions, and I've certainly done my share of that! But when I stopped eating s/f/w by following the suggested FAA food plan, a lot of the eating that I thought was over emotions, just stopped.

Here are some things I could recommend for you, Jazz:
Find out if you're a food addict, or if you think you might be. There's a good page on the FAA website on this:
http://www.foodaddictsanonymous.org/are-you-food-addict

If you think you might have a problem with food addiction, then I'd suggest coming to some FAA meetings. See if what people are talking about there makes sense for you, too:
http://www.foodaddictsanonymous.org/meetings
FAA asks you to try at least 6 meetings before deciding you don't need help, or aren't a food addict.

I'm so glad you've found FAA, Jazz. Please keep coming until you find out if this is, or if it isn't for you. Come again to Online Support and ask any questions you might have, too. We're here for you!

Hugs,
TYGtoday