sick of the binge

[namaste]

I am having a lot of trouble breaking out of my old habits. I keep on over inducing. I can't stop at times and once I get going I get so stressed out that my hands even shake. I need to stop. It is unhealthy and afterwards I feel miserable. I feel disgusting and want to stop. Help!

[nevertoolate]

I hear you on the binge thing, you can do this and you will feel so much better physically and about yourself. Keep coming back, go to some phone meetings and hear people who are going through the same thing, it helps to not feel alone with this food addiction....it doesn't happen overnight, small steps, and one day at a time....we are here for you namaste....come back.
Marilyn in Ohio:chuncky:

[faa4me]

I found my way to FAA because I could not stop bingeing. It was the scariest thing. I'm so grateful to have found this program and learned that when I eat any form of sugar/flour/wheat, which are addictive substances for me, a food addict, that I need more. It's a physical compulsion, and there's nothing I can do to control it. I'm powerless.

I found that FAA has a suggested food plan and was told that if I followed it, I would be able to stop bingeing. That has proved to be the case.

You're in the right place, namaste (love your name!) Please come to some phone meetings, and also you might try coming to an Open Chat for Newcomers. Also, read shares here in Online Support; there's lots of good sharing. Information on the Open Chats and the phone meetings are here:

http://www.foodaddictsanonymous.org/phone-meetings

http://www.foodaddictsanonymous.org/forums/showthread.php/1488-FAA-Chat-Room-Scheduled-Times

[chicko3x]

When I had my worst binges, the emotional damage was just as great as the physical. For me, the only time that I was able to stop was when I started to show myself more love and care. Just the simplest things, such as treating yourself to a walk in the park, or buying a new type of food on the food plan that you have never tried before can help lift you up! When my "self love bank" had a lot saved up, it was easier to navigate myself through the rougher times, when I feel disoriented and feel there is no way out of a binge. There is.. one day at a time, we can abstain from the foods that cause us distress. Praying, surrendering what is hurting, and following the 12 steps can help us to get back up no matter where we are! We may have rough days, yet we will see days with such overwhelming gratitude that we will know it is all worth it to fight for our own good!

[Boboelink]

I haven't been able to stop binging all week...oh boy I feel emotionally drained and yucky physically. I want this to stop and go away.

[tberry]

i hooked up with FAA two days ago, bought the food, cooked the food, ate the food, was full of hope and energy. Then about 3 pm today I was sitting on the couch and started getting that feeling that i wanted something "good" i.e., sweet, to eat. my binge food is primarily ice cream. I put on my shoes, got my keys, got in my car, drove to my closest convenience store and bought 3 pints of hagen daz. three. and ate them all. the whole time i was watching myself doing this. i can't believe how strong the cravings are. they are definitely physical -- it's like something happens in my mouth -- weird, but true -- as well as emotional, just needing to zone out. i am so discouraged. i was thinking the whole time i was getting ready to go to store that i had the phone number of the central office, just call it and get somebody to tlk me through it -- i don't have a sponsor or any other phone numbers yet. i want to just give up but that's like giving up on my life. i am going to get on the phone tomorrow and go to phone meetings and get a number i can call. i am sooo discouraged right now not to mention sick from eating 3 pints of ice cream. i see in the posts that there are many many people fighting the same thing, having the same experience of just not being able to stop eating -- i am 12 years sober and giving up alcohol was never as hard as giving up the binging, compulsive over eating. thanks for being there. I wish us all the willingness to finally kick this.

[tberry]

thanks, alissa

[faa4me]

You were right at the hardest part of the detox process while in Day 3. Hunger and cravings are some of the symptoms of withdrawal. Unfortunately, the only way out is through. Please try again, and come to plenty of meetings to help you out. There's a suggestion that we go to 90 meetings in 90 days. I did this (phone meetings in my case) and it really did help a lot. I was able to get phone numbers at the end of the meetings, and call people in between meetings. I also did a lot of reading of FAA literature in those early days, while getting plenty of rest and drinking lots of water.

You can do this, tberry. Keep coming, and don't give up!