Girlbot's thread, come on in! :-)

[lynni]

Well, crap... :-(

Took my first tumble off the abstinent wagon on Friday, booooo! I know why I did it- I was feeling really, MAJORLY stressed out because I had way too much work to do and not enough hours in the day, (my online business had a sale and the mail orders were endlessly flooding in, and I was trying to clean house and do laundry and stuff, too.) Plus it was Friday and I just wanted work to be over and fun time to start. I suddenly needed something sweet SOOOO bad, and I ended up eating one of my husband's Clif bars, then I ate another, then I had a banana, then I found his stash of M&Ms and had a few big handfuls of those, and I finished up with a can of his chicken noodle soup, (both for the noodles and the sweet-tasting broth.)

*siiiiighhhh* Oh well, I jumped right back on the wagon afterward and have been there since, so here's to hopefully being able to stick with it from now on.

Girlbot,

First off the mind sees what it wants it to see because my mind kept reading Gilbert and even though I read the husband and boyfriend and other things... Gilbert would not leave the brain! LOL So now that I got your name right...

This is a CONSISTENT downfall for me. I try to pay attention and not do TOO much because what you describe is what usually happens! Its funny cause when i read it I binged in my mind and felt good. Because when I'm in the act that's how I feel. When I got to the end of your post and the binge was over I immediately felt crappy, disgusting, fat, disappointed, shameful and dirty! All by reading. I wasn't in the act. This prompted me to respond because I saw ME in your post. I don't like it. I hate it. There are times where I am excellent at keeping things simple and light and assessing feelings before I committ to an activity because I know the consequence. I did this yesterday. And for one whole day I ate what I supposed too. Nothing more nothing less. I was proud but then immediately humbled myself and prayed. Today, so far day 2 is looking great. However I was "thrown" into being in charge of the Family Reunion all because I asked valid and important questions. Although I haven't entered into an "activity" I feel overwhelmed and tired just THINKING about it! I mean I have enough baby's this year with planning my Mother's 60th and my sister's babyshower all a month apart. I don't want anymore baby's! LOL I did commit that I would bring stemware to the family reunion and that's it. For the sake of my sanity and abstinence I have to decide now to say NO. But I have been in the same situation where at this time you can't say no. So ongoingly I am trying to figure out what to do in those situations. Maybe stop and do some deep breathing. Call someone. Voice record my thoughts (that's something new I've been doing lately and then I listen to them when I am winding down). Trying to work it out as I go along. Thanks for letting me share. Posting this help to get the feelings off my shoulders.

[Tortus]

Hey Girlbot,

are you still about?

hope so. :-)

Victoria

[JustForToday]

P.S. And maybe other people will eventually want to start their own threads for me to visit, huh? ;)

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