I learned a few very smart things from some of the other members since joining the program. The one that comes to mind is that major anniversaries can bring up obsessive food thoughts because of the emotions involved. Some people think of it as their disease fighting back. I don't really like to conceptualize my condition in that way, but I have experienced the problem. For me, it hit hard right before my sixth month anniversary and again before my 1 year. Before the sixth month anniversary, I started feeling what felt like food cravings to me. I couldn't stop thinking about food, just like in the old days. I felt like if that kept going on like that, I would crack. It went on for two days and it seemed like forever.
Somehow, I held on, with some phone calls and some deep breathing and some patience. Knowing that it could be anniversary related was reassuring. It gave me hope that the feelings would pass. THEY DID!
I had a lesser experience before my 1st anniversary but I was prepared this time and believed a lot more that it would be temporary, and IT WAS.
Why I'm telling you this is that 30 days is a big deal. And it is possible that something was fighting against you believing that you had found a solution. The key is to believe in the solution and to wait it out. Now that this has happened, you are knowledgeable about the phenonmena. Have you heard the saying "forewarned is forearmed"? It means that if you were to experience this next time, you would be able to wait it out knowing it is related to hitting a milestone. It is actually something to celebrate because you can get through it if you know about it.
The other thing that can be a trigger is the weight loss. Before my first month I was afraid that I didn't lose any weight. I talked to my sponsor about it and she said that if the scale was going to knock me out of my abstinence I should NOT weigh myself. I ended up weighing myself being very careful to be ready to call on support if needed. It all turned out ok and I've been ok with the scale ever since because I have learned to value my abstinence so much that the number on the scale is simply one of several monitoring tools I use and it is just not the biggest deal to me any more. Is it possible that weighing knocked you off balance? In that case, just don't weigh for a long time. It will not hurt not to know. It is much more important to focus on abstinence and clear mindedness and clean heartedness. The weight will come off naturally.
I hope that some of this helps. This is all about learning and growing and believe me, you have tons of understanding and support in these rooms and we believe in you!
Ora food addict CO
HI SHEILA! One day at a time works too....it all adds up...we get to the same place......don't be discouraged......no one asked for perfection....and none of us is perfect......this is still Earth, after all. Don't be so hard on yourself.
I am having a super duper hard time getting abstinent again. Yesterday was absolutely horrible! Worst day yet, however, today I have had 2 abstinent meals. My sponsor is not available on Saturdays' whatsoever, so here i am! Going to try to catch an FAA phone meeting today too! Sheila
Hi, Sheila, I know what you mean, I have some stuff in the frig I bought for company today but they didn't come yet and it's calling me.....have to get it out of here now
There, that feels better, what's a few bucks when it comes to protecting ourselves, right!!! I should have known better than to bring it into the house, that could have been a big sliperooooooo, already ate some fruiit I wasn't due for yet. life isn't perfect, neither am I. ...it is hard to get abstinent, still am working on it.....take care of yourself, 2 abstinent meals is great, give yourself some credit......one tiny step at a time, right? :)
So glad you have found Food Addicts Anonymous congratulations on maintaining your abstinence and Welcome! Most of the cravings are gone, that is so wonderful! I too am excited for you... thank you for sharing, and please keep coming back and keeping us updated!! It took me forever to get it but I have it now and I am not quitting no matter what!, it becomes easier overtime as knowledge and habits increase with practice meetings are my medicine I need one every day and out reach calls are so helpful! You are not alone.
Alice abstinent food addict recovering in -PA
HEY SHEILA, HOW ARE YOU DOING OUT THERE IN SPACE?
mARILYN IN oHIO
Hello everyone, and Marilyn too! :)
I have been struggling big time. Every single day I do great, but once nighttime comes I eat things not on plan. Today has been a stellar day food wise, but the cravings right now are unbearable. I pray I can make it thru and not lose my abstinence once again.
My sponsor suggests asking myself what would I be thinking about right now if I weren't thinking about food. Another thing that works for me is to breathe slowly and remind myself that the desire is temporary.
Ora food addict co
I wrote down a plan of what I would do when the cravings came on. I knew that it would be very hard to resist once I was in the middle of cravings, so having a list was a really big help.
Originally Posted by Sheila
Another thing is that it'll be much, much easier to stick to the food plan once you have gone through withdrawal and no sugar/flour/wheat is left in your system. If that hasn't happened yet, the reason you'd be having such a hard time is physical... s/f/w cause uncontrollable physical cravings in food addicts. The cravings will be hard as you're going through withdrawal, but in my case, they left me about a week after letting go of the s/f/w. I went to phone meetings for support (almost every day) and also I called a lot of people in FAA, especially in those early days. They helped with the questions I had (this was before I had my sponsor) and they were also very encouraging.
Good luck, Sheila, and don't give up. You can do this!
Well, I have returned!! Today is day 15 for me. I learned I had a problem with yeast which can bring on cravings. Intersting enough I bought some yeast stuff at a health food store and my hunger went waaaay down. I feel as if I have hope today!! How is everyone doing??
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