I need help!

[Athiria]

I don't know what to do. I read litteature, i try to eat abstinence food. Sometimes I call people.
I still haven't been abstinent for one single day for a while:S
What's wrong with me? :(

[nevertoolate]

NOTHING, YOU'RE HUMAN. It takes awhile to get off sugar/flour/wheat stuff...some people just go cold turkey and others like me go one tiny step at a time....it all gets to the same place eventually....keep coming back, talk to people, don't put yourself down, there is real hope here.
Marilyn

[Athiria]

Thanks! :)
I'll keep comming back and try not to be perfect but human
But if I'm not perfect, how can i then take on this disease? It feels hopeless
Sorry but I don't get it, how can I not be perfect and still keep my abstinence?
Often when I see people who have long abstinence I think they got something that I don't

[fullofhope]

For so long I kept saying "I need help", but I never said it in my out loud voice. When I finally said it out loud and accepted that I am powerless by myself over this disease, then things started getting better. I have only been abstinent for 43 days. I am not sure how I made it through the first few days or even how I will make it years, but I have hope. I write down what I am going to eat every day. I have fresh food in the correct measurements ready to go. The biggest thing I do is ask for help each and every day and often several times during the day. I feel good, but I know I have a long way to go. Forever seems for too long. So I focus on this moment. I have discovered there is lots of support and all I need to do is use my out loud voice and ask. Thank you for your post. One of the things I remind myself of is that I am perfectly imperfect and I need to forgive myself so I can be comfortable in the moment.

[alicemdavid]

Hello Athiria

Welcome to food addicts anonymous, may I suggest you find your self a sponsor if you haven't already or form your self a support team we can not do this alone, and also review our guide to abstinence when planning your foods...It is helpful to me when I journal my food, I do this daily before breakfast. I use it everyday I have been doing this for many 24 hours. I am now craving free! Yippie!! It was a struggle for me but it is doable, I admire the people who come in and get it immeidatley...God bless them and help change me! I must also admit I am not perfect, I have not ever met any one who is...I love the slogan progress not perfection. May I also suggest you try at least 7 meetings one a day for a week, gather phone numbers from people you can relate to, try to listen with an open mind and keep coming back...and as for me I work my program one day at a time, that is all I can handle.
Check out the phone meeting times on our website dial in 17124516000 pin 7393# any questions please feel free to send me a message, I will try to help the best I can! And again Welcome I am glad you are here & keep coming back!!!

[nevertoolate]

ATHIRIA, you take on this disease one tiny step at a time,, one day at a time, one bite at a time.....cutting back on the sweet stuff, and the floury stuff and the wheat....it's not a sudden change, it's a process and every day you come back online and talk about it or call someone or go to a "meeting" is progress.....you're doing something right now to help yourself....you are taking on the challenge...keep coming back....congratulations......the only thing long-timers have you don't is experience.....they have struggled adn are still struggling, every day, but once you get the s/f/w/ crap out of your system, you will feel so much better....FAA is a very supportive environment.....it is here for you....keep reaching out athiria.
Marilyn in Ohio

[shines_so_bright]

Dear Athiria,

I learned that I can't take on the disease... this disease is so much stronger than I am! That's what's meant in FAA's Step One:

We admitted we were powerless over our food addiction; that our lives had become unmanageable.

It wasn't the easiest thing I've ever done (at all!) but surrendering to the fact of my food addiction had to happen before I was able to get the clean abstinence that I wanted. I didn't "get" it from the first day, but I did go on the food plan on the first day (and have been on it since then). There were a few things (not many) that I was holding onto for a short while, but I went to a meeting every day and listened very hard to people who had what I wanted (abstinence and some nice serenity, for a start).

The fact that you're here and talking about it is good, Athiria. It's easier to stay abstinent than it is to get abstinent, so don't quit, no matter what. Abstinence and recovery from food addiction can happen for you. Keep coming back, and keep sharing!

[Athiria]

THANKS FOR YOUR REPLIES!
The problem is that i'm so scared of admitting i'm powerless, it feels like in our society like saying that i am a week human being with no future or something... To say that I can controll my life has for so long been my last excuse and a way to feel at ease and safe.
I don't know what happens if i say i'm powerless. It just feels as if my life will end and the world will stop working or something.
Since a young age i always got the sugar.
What am I without the sugar or without the controll? Just a worthless human being:'(
But i know I have to stop playing God some day. I can't controll my life, I have to live it.
But how could I be able to handle hunger, misary, hurt feeling and everything that comes to living a life?
An abstinent life seems so full of pain.

[nevertoolate]

iT'S JUST THE OPPOSITE, A LIFE FILLED WITH HAPPINESS.

[Athiria]

Thanks!
To be honest i don't know what happiness is anymore. I'll try to find new hobbies, go to meetings and return over and over again.