I've changed my mind about blaming myself all these years for this food thing.....after reading the FAA Lit and a lot of wise messages on these boards, I believe I was compelled to eat this crap because of what it is...POISON, ADDICTIVE SUBSTANCES....that called out to me repeatedly because they are full of sugar/flour/wheat and I could not stop eating them.....I now believe I am a food addict and have been since childhood.....and I AM WILLING TO BE ABSTINENT...that scares me because I'm thinking too far ahead, have to stay in the now moment, one day at a time, and I also don't want to fail again....but I am willing to give up that crap food....I thought it was my friend, IT HAS NEVER BEEN MY FRIEND....IT ONLY CAUSED ME PAIN IN THE LONG RUN BY MAKING ME FAT......
Day 4, willing and praying for grace
Hi all, I batter myself emotionally for things that make no sense at all even picking food because all I have to do is start again. I felt so low this morning and went back to bed got up and felt worse. I talked and prayed my way through to make protein to eat and go sit in sun foor 15 minutes. I feel better. My vitamin levels were checked and both D and B12 were very close to the low range. I see the Doctor on Thursday and have to impress upon him that the fatigue I feel is too much for my age, stress level, etc. Hopefully, he will help me to get these ranges up. Anyone had vitamin deficiencies? Continuing on with my day little by slowly. Marilyn,
stop the self battering and start the program. You are worth it. You are loved. Mary
I have gotten with the program Tropical and am on day 4....I am praying to be willng to give up the s/f/w/ and staying away from MCD...my main hangout/ I hope you feel much better soon, fatigue is a difficult thing to deal with...you don't have CFS do you, chronic fatigue? Take good care of yourself Mary, hope to see you on here soon...could always meet in chat room for a talk anytime, just let me kinow.
Marilyn, willing and more determined than ever.
YOU GO GIRL!!
so glad you are here! so glad you are all here...you all are worth it, DO NOT QUIT NO MATTER WHAT!!!
Alice abstinent food addict recovering in -PA
Day 6 and grateful
Thanks for your encouragement, Alice, it's people like you who keep us coming back. The very best to you....as we approach Thanksgiving, we can probably all come up with a list of things we are grateful for...FAA is one of the things I am most grateful for in my life....it feels like HOME now.
Originally Posted by alicemdavid
Grateful recovering Food Addict here, I have found a daily reprieve from this addiction as long as I work this program. I am off 5 different med's thanks to H.P. and FAA and all the other Food Addicts contacting me.
THAT IS AWESOME! It gives those of us still on meds hope....that is great, congrats on working the program, HP is good.
Marilyn in Ohio