Stealing from kids
I didn't realize how much I had let this addiction take over my life. I am now on day 5 of abstinence. The other night I took my daughter and her friend to another friend's house. I sat in horror as my daughter recounted the times she had saved a special treat for a special occasion. Only she to come home from school and find that her food had been ransacked, in her mother's desperate attempt to satisfy a craving for sweets.
I was so embarrassed as she spoke about a time when she was 8 and I asked to see the ingredients of a store bought sweet she was eating only to take a bite. She laughed about the story last night but I remember how hurt she was and how hard it's been for her to trust me. This is so sad.
She is not afraid to remind me of why this lifestyle of abstinence works for me or to say,"No, you don't understand my mom is an addict."
When I first entered one of the chatroom I had no idea what FAA was, and as it was explained to me that it was a lifestyle of abstinence I thought wow, this is serious. But after thinking about it for a while I realized that I needed something serious.
Once again I love the support and understanding here.
I once stole a piece of half eaten cake from my roommate out of the sink. Technically she was done with it, but it just shows how deep this disease can get. I have stolen so much food from my friends and family without them knowing it, but there is always a new beginning that can be ours, thanks to this program. Staying aware of our past without judgement allows us to view the ways of the disease with a clearer lens, and I am glad we can share here. Cheers to a great journey
I too stole candy from my kids, I would raid their Easter candy, Halloween candy, Christmas candy. Finish 1/2 eaten candy bars, lolly pops, bags of chips crackers, happy meals what ever they didn't eat I was the garbage can.
When they would look for the things I ate. I would be honest and tell them I ate them they would get up set so I would give them money to get more. My addiction ruled my life and I have paid dearly for it.
I would also eat food while shopping in the grocery store taste testing everything in sight, my husband did not approve and many times he told me If I were caught I would be arrested for shop lifting. I thought this behavior was normal. I learned do this as a child. When ever shopping at the deli counter they would give us cheese or some luncheon meat, at the bakery they would give out a cookie or a donut I would always make it back for a second round and be sure to get some to go! The same went on in the produce department try it before you buy it. I have to admit this habit was hard to break just as hard to break as licking the spoon while preparing foods!
Now I do not even go the the deli counter or the bakery, when shopping in the produce section I imagine a loving food addict is there with me and if I have a problem, I can call him or her and we can talk about whats going on.When cooking or preparing foods I keep a dish pan of hot soapy water and a wet dish cloth close by and when finished with the spoon in the dish pan and the fingers get wiped on the dish cloth nothing goes in the mouth. I do not have to eat about it!
My addiction is as serious as a heart attack! I need you all I can not do this alone. I too am thankful for the love and support of each other! and the clarity I have received just gotta say WOW!!
Alice abstinent food addict recovering in -PA
My husband used to jokingly call me an addict and for years not understand what was wrong with me. When I told him about this group he was shocked to learn that there was a group of people out there with the same issues as me. I love it! I don't feel like a weirdo or an outcast.
Thanks you all and keep coming!
addict in NC
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