I have been on the FAA food plan in the past, lost a lot of weight too and I felt wonderful when I was on it. Now I am fat again and miserable. I miss my parents so much. Why did they have to get old and sick and then leave me alone on this miserable planet? The pain doesn't go away. The overeating is not helping either. It just makes me hate myself when I overeat. I know FAA is the only solution for me but still I choose to destroy myself with junk food. Why?
It sounds like you are in a lot of pain. Just remember you are not alone. We are here for you and your Higher Power. Keep coming back and don't isolate yourself, your disease wants you get you alone and keep you that way so it can kill you. You are vulnerable right now and more important than that so hand it over what you can't handle to your higher power.Originally Posted by Pandora
Take care,
Hi Pandora, I'm new around here and what I find helps is literally "keeping it in the day"... One day at a time and you can give up the junk, even if you take it one meal at a time you can do it. Its uber important to keep your blood sugar stable. That means no skipping meals! I'm still getting to grips with the food plan but aslong as I can stay away from sugar, flour and wheat for the day I'm doing well. Ask for your cravings to be removed and for withdrawal not to be too severe, get plenty of protein in and watch your body reap the rewards. Try and get just one day abstinent and anchor the feeling the next morning when you wake up without a sugar hangover. Then take one day at a time. Don't give up when you've still got something left to give. I'm sorry your parents died, may your grief ease and may they Rest In Peace. Pray to them for extra help.
Light and Love my dear, M.
I think when we go through something stressful or traumatic, we tend to run to our familiar friends, called junk food. I would eat junk to celebrate or grieve or just because I had a good or bad day. It was my normal, my go to. Then I asked myself what could the food really do for me? Could it change what happened or could I change the outcome? It was me who had to change the outcome or live with the outcome. Whatever happened, happened. I don't run to my old friends now, I blog, or read about what I am going through, or talk to someone else or just plain feel the pain and work through it. I have God and that is all I need to work through it. Another thing I have learned to do is tell myself I have a condition and cannot eat certain foods, I am allergic to them. That being said, I had a cookie realpse at the end of December for about 2 days, and while eating some forbidden cookies, I asked myself why do I really want this cookie? I couldn't come up with an answer. I told myself to put the cookie down and I did and threw the rest of them out. The holidays triggered me to eat them because I always did, so now I have to learn to celebrate the holidays not indulge on the available foods. It is the line of thinking that helps to change the behavior. For me, one leads to 15 in no time flat. I am like an alcoholic, you can't just have one and not go full blown into it!! It is changing the total behavior from the thought process to the action. I have to really focus on thinking about it. Foods will call me by name and I have to not answer and think that junk is not for nourishment and God wouldn't like it.
I'm new here and don't know much yet. I know I have a huge problem w/ sugar, flour.Figured that out when I pulled raw cinnamon dough out of the trash can and ate it. Sorry to hear about your parents but try to keep in mind that they are very happy where they are now and you will see them someday as we all will see our loved ones.They don't want you to be miserable, stuck in a sugar rut which will only make you more and more depressed. Get back with the program and you will feel much better!
Hey Pandora,you are not alone ......you may be a food addict and addicts like us keep eating even when we're full....we keep stuffing ourselves to ease the pain and that just adds to it....stop beating yourself up about it
But addicts like us recover, we get better, we get off the crap and think so much more clearly, we don't feel so down, we feel positive and look forward to life....that's the miracle of FAA.....you know it can happen for you again and that's why you are here......KEEP COMING BACK.....you are only alone if you choose to be....get the phone meeting list, talk to people, make connections, this has become a new home and family for many of us who no longer have immediate family....these people love and support us....and that is what we need..... :)
marilyn in ohio
I appreciate all of you wonderful people here. Thanks so much. I do see myself getting back into recovery soon. I am really getting sick of all of this junk food. Yuk!!! I need to stop feeling sorry for myself. I am praying to God to save me from myself and my self destructive eating habits.
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