Jill's Journey

[wantingintegrity]

Hi There, all, I just want to thank you all for being here, I wanted a place to document my journey with FAA, so im hoping ot keep this thread going!. I am on day #3, got a sponsor, a food plan, attended an online meeting and many phone meetings, I wish I could say I stayed awake for all the phone meetings, but being newly abstinent has made me so very tired and headachy... I feel awful that I cant stay awake long enough to the end to get phone number but im not going ot give up! I was so excited to get up today and do my tai chi, I havent done that dvd in so long, I cant remember how long! I feel good this am, but still have a headache, one day at a time, right?

Thank you all for being here xoxoxox

[wantingintegrity]

im also going to work on finding new ways to fulfill this prayer, with Gods help!



~Praying to find comfort, solace, love and strength here and from my higher power, and NOT from food!~



Comfort: my kitties, hugs from others, a friends phone call, curling up on the couch to watch a movie, curling up in bed, reading, the library, a boostore, warm bath

solace: alone time, quiet time with God, watching the sun rise in the morning, being out in the woods, doing things by myself (what does solace really mean? ill have to look it up!)

love: I want to work on GIVING love and not just waiting around to receive it! Also, I need to be able to receive it, I have a hard time when someone loves me, a part of me wants to push them away (better to be in control of the ending of the relationship, how insane)

strength: FAA, God, abstinence, doing what I say im going to do (integrity)

[wantingintegrity]

ugh, ive been feeling awful, so very tired, and feel like i have the flu! Is this detox???

My sponsor says to drink more water so im really going to try, I feel terrible that my fatigue keeps me from making it to the end of the meetings (phone and web meetings). This too shall pass, right?

I hope for the day I can get up early and be part of the 5:45 am meeting.

Looking forward to the Super Bowl Meeting this sunday! :)

Gosh, I would never know I needed to DETOX flour sugar and wheat!!

have a blessed day, everyone xoxoxox

[cindyskylar]

Hi Jill,

Welcome and congratulations on four of back to back abstinence! Congratulations, too, on getting a sponsor and attending meetings. It sounds like you're doing all the right things.*

Good luck and remember: dont pick up no matter what.*

xo
Cindy from New York*

[wantingintegrity]

oh thank you, Cindy, I know how tight the edge is with this disease as I had a 6 month break in another 12 step program.

I ate out tonight and I eat so darned fast, and then im squirming when everyone else is eating, any tips on slowing down? Has this happened to anyone?

[wantingintegrity]

comfort: my sponsor (she said to slow down eating by chewing each bite 10-15 times and count to myself, I cant wait to try this!!)

solace: (I said I wanted to look this up, so here it is!)sol·ace

   /ˈsɒlɪs/ Show Spelled [sol-is] Show IPA noun, verb, -aced, -ac·ing.
noun Also called sol·ace·ment. 1. comfort in sorrow, misfortune, or trouble; alleviation of distress or discomfort.

2. something that gives comfort, consolation, or relief: The minister's visit was the dying man's only solace.


verb (used with object) 3. to comfort, console, or cheer (a person, oneself, the heart, etc.).

4. to alleviate or relieve (sorrow, distress, etc.).




love: I just love this little four year old in my care., her birthday was today and I spent almost the whole day with her..I love her!!!

strength: I find strength in my higher power ONLY when I remember (which, honestly isnt often enough!), I find strength from this group.

[Sheila]

Hi Jill!

Welcome to the forum! YES! I have gobbled my food my whole life. I still eat fast at times, but I really try to SLOW DOWN! When w/ others, I make a conscious effort to set my fork down between each bite so I am not the FIRST one done by a mile.

I will enjoy reading your journey!


Sheila

[wantingintegrity]

im feeling better! the clouds are lifting, headache and achiness are better, belly is full of a nutritious breakfast, I have made it to a FULL Meeting and got phone numbers TWICE, making friends with my fellows! THANK YOU GOD!!!

I was offered fresh out of the oven cookies yesterday and I said, oh those look yummy!

Her: "Ill make you a plate"

Me: "oh, I dont eat sugar or flour anymore!"

Her: "oh, I guess you dont want any, then?"

Me: "Oh! I want them! but if I cant eat them as one bite will set up an uncontrollable craving!! I'm so sorry!!!"

peace enveloped me!!!! THANK YOU FELLOWSHIP!!!!

oh, and yesterday, while i was cooking dinner (which I actually text my daughter to say, "we are eating at 5") who does that? not me!! hahaha

anyways, she said, "Mom! you look good!" Im like really??? its day 5!

She was mad for a minute "you didnt tell me you were doing that!"

I told her how i afraid I wouldnt stick with it and I didnt want her to be ashamed of me....

she gave me a huge hug and said she is so happpy for me....

day 6 and im already feeling the promises of the program!

[Sheila]

Awesome JILL! Whoohoo!! Today is day 4 for me...I am a tiny bit scared about the superbowl party I am hosting....but I know it is just another day and food will NOT make things any better for me, only worse!

good for you 2 meetings already! I did one this morning.

I only have 2 kids today in my daycare, how many do you watch?

I replied on my post to you too!

Have an abstinent day!

Today is day 4 for me!

Sheila

[wantingintegrity]

daycare pals, yay! my daycare kids are probably happy im in FAA as their daycare snacks are safe now! haha I usually have one, two or three kids... my own are 19 and 21.

great day today, I went to am meeting, had a fellowship call, worked, lunch with a friend (ABSTINENT!!!), got a birthday party gift, now off to the birthday party (gonna eat first as they are having pizza) .