Day One

[mainecyn]

Today is day one. I am starting out on this journey all over again. I am hoping being active on this site will help me. I often feel so alone physically and emotionally. I get that this is an addiction. I understand I have to learn how to control it. This is the 2nd relapse I have had. I have lost over 80lbs twice. My binges will last for months, generally it is the weekend. I will eat non-stop morning thru nightime to the point of being hurt, painfully full. I don't binge and purge, just binge eat.

I am hopeful, but skeptical, that this is gonna be any different for me. This FAA, this admitting finally that I am a food addict. That it isn't just about dieting. I am addicted to certain foods, all of them listed here, CARBS. I can not eat them without binging, it triggers it. It isn't about learning to slowly introduce them back into my life, as I have tried. Its about keeping them outa my life completely and knowing that its ok to do that.

I want this to be different. Working during the day makes it easier. Week nights aren't as hard as weekends.

I feel very very fragile. I used to have rules. I would let myself eat just small amounts on a certain day "cheat day". Then I would add more of that food. Then more often. Next thing I knew i was eating every day all day, binging. To where there was no control, felt powerless, confused, worthless.

I am going to make the meal plan my bible. I have issues with fruit. I can binge on anything. This weekend it was a 3 lb bag of cuties oranges and bananas I will add more veggies than i have been eating. I do ok on non-starchy veggies and lean protein.

I can do this, right? I hope.

I just don't know what to do besides don't eat flour, sugar, or starchy foods. My last binge was around 10 last night. If i say it enough i might believe it..you can do this.

[Brooke]

It's Day One here, too...
I'm SO incredibly afraid of failing.
I HAVE to do this and actually am excited about it but then that stupid voice comes into my head reminding me of how much I have failed in the past.

Let's keep coming back - this is a great place for support, it seems.
Walking this road with you ~ Brooke

[alicemdavid]

Hello & a Big Welcome to Food Addicts Anonymous...

I live in today, another food addict told me sweetheart don't rob yourself of this beautiful day and worry yourself with past failures or future issues just stay right here in this beautiful day right now is where we are...so s. i. t.-stay in today.. day one is a glorious day!! One day @ a time. Its is all this food addict can manage! Its a no matter what thing for me...Here I am in today... NO MATTER WHAT! Congratulations on day one!!

page 168 June 16 from our beautiful food for the soul book
DAY ONE
We often hear our fellow addicts who are struggling declare that they are back to Day One. We may have thought that Day One was synonymous with “You failed.” But let’s reexamine Day One. It is a glorious day. It is certainly far preferable to Day Zero. Just one day can make all the difference, and the moment we stop eating sugar, flour, and wheat, we are abstinent. Our first day of abstinence can begin at any moment. It need not begin at midnight or the next morning. The day has not been ruined. We begin Day One at the moment that we become willing to accept the gift of abstinence. We can abstain from addictive foods for one 24-hour period. One day is all we need, and that day is today. We need never return to Day One, because we have never really left it. Today is always Day One.

For today, I pray that I will value my current abstinence as the only abstinence I’ll ever need.

[Brooke]

Hello & a Big Welcome to Food Addicts Anonymous...

I live in today, another food addict told me sweetheart don't rob yourself of this beautiful day and worry yourself with past failures or future issues just stay right here in this beautiful day right now is where we are...so s. i. t.-stay in today.. day one is a glorious day!! One day @ a time. Its is all this food addict can manage! Its a no matter what thing for me...Here I am in today... NO MATTER WHAT! Congratulations on day one!!

page 168 June 16 from our beautiful food for the soul book
DAY ONE
We often hear our fellow addicts who are struggling declare that they are back to Day One. We may have thought that Day One was synonymous with “You failed.” But let’s reexamine Day One. It is a glorious day. It is certainly far preferable to Day Zero. Just one day can make all the difference, and the moment we stop eating sugar, flour, and wheat, we are abstinent. Our first day of abstinence can begin at any moment. It need not begin at midnight or the next morning. The day has not been ruined. We begin Day One at the moment that we become willing to accept the gift of abstinence. We can abstain from addictive foods for one 24-hour period. One day is all we need, and that day is today. We need never return to Day One, because we have never really left it. Today is always Day One.

For today, I pray that I will value my current abstinence as the only abstinence I’ll ever need.

Thank you so much for those wonderful words of encouragement!! Finished with Day 2 today and loving it but I am SO cranky! My poor family... LOL I need to just "sit here" in this day and be happy and grateful for this abstinent day!

All the best,
Brooke

[sunshinegirl]

Hello,

I am starting this journey over again today. I left and went to a Nazi food program for the last year and failed miserably to find abstainance.. I came back because I know this program will work if I am willing to put down the food. I have had a hard time the last 2 months and feel great relief to have this program to come to.

[Athiria]

You're doing a wonderful job everybody! :D

[mainecyn]

I lost control again and binged this weekend-Sunday the entire day. I am at a loss and feeling miserable.

[Tortus]

Oh love, I'm sorry you are feeling so bad.

You managed a month so you know you can do it. Think about how much better you were feeling when you were eating clean foods.

Forgive yourself, and start again.

We're all here for you.

Victoria xx