Shaky Ground

[rachof76]

So have been doing FAA program for almost a year, next month will be a year of working on my recovery. I wish I could say its been an abstinent year, unfortunately not.

I moved to a country town in that time and have been on shaky ground for a while. A few times picked up but got straight back on the horse and was proud I was guided to that place. The last 2 days I have stuck my head in the sugar jar and am struggling to come out.

I dont have any face to face meetings and seem to conveniently forget about the phone meetings, so am stepping out of my normal comfort zone of head in sand and putting it out there on here. I am struggling to get my head to just give in, surrender and do what is good for me. The sad part, is that I know this program is what is good for me and yet my stubborn nature seems to want to run the race...

I love this program, but am walking on shaky ground and am scared I will jump off this ride and back into the darkness, so any words of wisdom would really really be appreciated.

Thanks
Rach in oz

[JustForToday]

Join us for the online meetings. They are held in the FAA chat room on this website. Look for the meeting link on the home page and choose online from the drop down list.

The Friday open chat is at 9pm Eastern (6pm Pacific). And it's an informal chat and a safe place to ask questions.

The Saturday online meeting at 11am Eastern (8am Pacific) is the beginner meeting and is open to everyone and everyone who wishes to share is welcome to do that. This meeting follows protocol for sharing which is explained at the meeting.

The Sunday online meeting at 1pm Eastern (10am Pacific) also follows protocol for sharing and uses the FAA meditation book, Food for the Soul.

The Tuesday online at 9pm Eastern (6pm Pacific) is an informal open chat.

The FAALoop is on the Yahoo/groups and is a 24/7 Loop meeting and has a new leader each Sunday and new topics daily and everyone is welcome to share. The newcomers are welcome to introduce themselves and share on what brought them to FAA.

Keep coming back, this way of life really does work.

[Tortus]

Hi Rach

Just wanted to send my best wishes.

Three months for me and started to get a bit wobbly so reached out on the Loop and now in email contact with four fellow FAs, one on skype too which is lovely, being able to chat.

We know this is what works, keeps us sane and safe, but you are right; surrender is hard sometimes!

Thinking of you,

Victoria x
Praying to stay clean today.

[rachof76]

Join us for the online meetings. They are held in the FAA chat room on this website. Look for the meeting link on the home page and choose online from the drop down list.

The Friday open chat is at 9pm Eastern (6pm Pacific). And it's an informal chat and a safe place to ask questions.

The Saturday online meeting at 11am Eastern (8am Pacific) is the beginner meeting and is open to everyone and everyone who wishes to share is welcome to do that. This meeting follows protocol for sharing which is explained at the meeting.

The Sunday online meeting at 1pm Eastern (10am Pacific) also follows protocol for sharing and uses the FAA meditation book, Food for the Soul.

The Tuesday online at 9pm Eastern (6pm Pacific) is an informal open chat.

The FAALoop is on the Yahoo/groups and is a 24/7 Loop meeting and has a new leader each Sunday and new topics daily and everyone is welcome to share. The newcomers are welcome to introduce themselves and share on what brought them to FAA.

Keep coming back, this way of life really does work.

Thank you! I have no idea if Pacific is Australian time or American time haha thats where I find it hard to guage when is when but will do some research and sort it out. Especially if they are on during work hours, I can drop in and out!

I get the loop already - I am fantastic at filing it away for a rainy day - apparently, there hasnt been a rainy day - avoidance is what I like to call it - its hard facing up to the failure that I am feeling over what I am doing. But time to kick my butt and really start getting myself into program and doing the suggested things.

I might find a way to travel back to Sydney once a month for the meeting for face to face - might help! 5 hour drive...

Thank you for your words!

[rachof76]

Hi Rach

Just wanted to send my best wishes.

Three months for me and started to get a bit wobbly so reached out on the Loop and now in email contact with four fellow FAs, one on skype too which is lovely, being able to chat.

We know this is what works, keeps us sane and safe, but you are right; surrender is hard sometimes!

Thinking of you,

Victoria x
Praying to stay clean today.

Thanks Victoria

Any chance you want another email buddy???

[JustForToday]

[QUOTE=rachof76;9758]Thank you! I have no idea if Pacific is Australian time or American time haha thats where I find it hard to guage when is when but will do some research and sort it out. Especially if they are on during work hours, I can drop in and out!

The times quoted are US times and the phone list gives the time in Eastern, US has gone to Daylight Savings Time.

There are world clock time converters on the web - can just google for one of them. I put in 11am Eastern, Sat June 9(US time for Florida which is the location of the FAA World Service Office) and Sydney as the place to convert the time to. It came back with 1 am, June 10, and I hope that you find some meetings that are convenient for you. We're much stronger with you with us.

[Tortus]

Thanks Victoria

Any chance you want another email buddy???

You betcha!

This way I'll be so busy emailing I won't have time to eat anything I shouldn't!

tora9864@hotmail.com

xx