sad and lonely

[angieleigh]

My name is Andrea and I am so sad tonight. I just indulged in binge food, sugar and wheat this time. I feel so lonely and although it was not a full out binge tonight, it was yesterday and I swore I would never eat addictive food again. Somedays I feel like giving up on myself and life. I feel depression and it hurts. I am in a marriage with a partner who does not understand me and all we do is argue. Our familes are both troubled and I do not have any friends anymore. I am isloated, and feel lonely in my marriage aswell. I feel like I am just getting by everyday, and somedays I am holding on by a thread. I am 26 years old, and I feel like I am tired of life. I have been struggling with food addiction my entire life, and my weight has fluxuated over the years. No one would ever suspect I am a food addict, because I am tall and appear to be thin. I also have studied so much about health and wellness trying to help myself that people come to me for advice not knowing I am a food addict. I am so full of shame. I am so hurt inside.

I have tried recovery from food addiction program and only lasted 2 weeks. I couldn't bare the thought of living my entire life without addictive food. I would dream of it nightly, and I even talked myself into believing I was not truly a food addict. And so the cycle of compulsive overeating began again.

I am new to this fourm and want to be involved so I can recover.

[Tortus]

Dear Angie

I feel your pain. :-(

You are in the right place here for support, friendship, encouragement.

I too have trouble accepting that I am an addict, so don't swear never to eat sugar/flour/wheat again, JUST FOR TODAY, even just for this morning, just for this meal. Baby steps.

Read, read, read all the info on here. The stories of hope, the meal plans, the delicious recipes that are abstinent but so filling and yummy,

We're all in this together,

With love,

Victoria xxx

[nevertoolate]

[QUOTE=angieleigh;9789]My name is Andrea and I am so sad tonight. I just indulged in binge food, sugar and wheat this time. I feel so lonely and although it was not a full out binge tonight, it was yesterday and I swore I would never eat addictive food again. Somedays I feel like giving up on myself and life. I feel depression and it hurts. I am in a marriage with a partner who does not understand me and all we do is argue. Our familes are both troubled and I do not have any friends anymore. I am isloated, and feel lonely in my marriage aswell. I feel like I am just getting by everyday, and somedays I am holding on by a thread. I am 26 years old, and I feel like I am tired of life. I have been struggling with food addiction my entire life, and my weight has fluxuated over the years. No one would ever suspect I am a food addict, because I am tall and appear to be thin. I also have studied so much about health and wellness trying to help myself that people come to me for advice not knowing I am a food addict. I am so full of shame. I am so hurt inside.

I have tried recovery from food addiction program and only lasted 2 weeks. I couldn't bare the thought of living my entire life without addictive food. I would dream of it nightly, and I even talked myself into believing I was not truly a food addict. And so the cycle of compulsive overeating began again.


Welcome, Andrea, you are not alone in your feelings.....food addiction is isolating and many of us feel lonely because of that....many of our families, those who are not food addicts, don't understand but many of them drink or smoke or do drugs, so we all have our weaknesses.....but you are reaching out for an answer and there is one here....there is truly hope here....not feeling alone, finding so many people you can talk to who understand what you are saying can really help. There is a lot of information available on FAA web pages about sugar addiction....their theory is sugar/flour/wheat is just as addictive as heroin and I've come to believe it (I'm 73) and have never been able to quit it, but now have some hope......it just makes sense......being in a marriage with someone who doesn't understand is very hard but in all fairness, if they haven't experienced it, it's hard for them to get it....there is a place online in FAA where people in that situation talk about the problem......sugar makes us feel up and down and the downs can be really rough, but the you on poisonous sugar is not the real you....getting off the crap food, getting it out of our systems, can help us think so much more clearly....still attempting it myself and I'm 73, so don't give up....
If you lasted almost 2 weeks, you almost got through withdrawal, then the cravings for junk food really do go away if we just stick to it....the problem is thinking too far ahead, if we imagine our whole life without sugary food or anything, for that matter, it's discouraging...the one day at a time approach is for a reason, the one tiny step at a time is for a reason.....
I'm going to work on just today, go for it Andrea, just today.....worry about tomorrow, tomorrow. You can do this, you want to do this and you have reached out for support. It is here.
Go for it, Andrea! :)
Marilyn in Ohio

[JustForToday]

I've had the food dreams also, where I find myself reaching for that sugary stuff. Sugar seems to be my main choice as a food fix. The first 2-3 years of abstinence had food dreams and my sponsors just kept reminding me that they were just dreams and to keep doing the next right thing.

My family doesn't support me on this journey either - they don't understand food addiction and how can they when they can eat one cookie. I never could do that. I would become obsessed with that first bite and would keep going back for more, if I could.

We understand and care, keep coming back.

[Athiria]

I will pray for you

[Chaim]

Nice don't feel lonely now you join this forum and welcome to the forum. I am also sugar addicts but use to do work out daily at morning exercise. Try to avoid soda drinks and tea because I like more sugar in tea.

[dlaura]

Hi, I am Laura, a food addict. Today with some of the same issues as you stated, I stayed abstinent. I have lost the taste for a lot of sweets. I continue to tell myself that I cannot just eat poision without dying.

[Kendrick]

Hi Andrea,
Good that you shared your feelings with us, hope it makes you feel relax as sharing your problems with others always makes you relaxing. Exercise regularly to sooth stress and to deal with depression. Watch what you eat and drink more water than routine. Quit alcohol, smoking and caffeine and have proper sleep.

[camino]

Listen to music. Music soothes the soul and has tremendous power to reduce stress.