I'm weak right now.
I've been so good the past couple weeks. I hadnt been binging or purging much at all and I was extremely proud of myself. I'm back on track to losing weight, and i've been active every day. It even seemed my mentality on food began to change, only eat if hungry, only eat for fuel and nutrition. It is a great feeling!
Well today is a different story. I had a good morning with breakfast under 500 calories and very nutritious. I ate my next meal around 5 and its all down hill. Not with bad junk, but over 1000 calories of "heath foods". I dont even have the energy to exercise now because of all this food ive eaten. Im beginning to feel out of control though. Ive already ate a whole box of atkins bars and I want more. My mentality is sickly thinking, one more wont hurt, but one more later and I want more more more. I feel out of control and disapointed in myself.
Ive been toning up nicely over these last couple weeks, only 5 lbs left to my goal weight of 128.
Please someone help me.
RE: I'm weak right now.
I know how you feel. I can over eat in the "health foods" too. I feel that if they are healthy then it should be ok to have them even if I over ate on them. I am still going through the same thing and the only thing I can say to you is to try not to beat yourself up over it. You made a mistake, you acknowledged the mistake and now you can work on it. One day at a time :)
Originally Posted by CassieK
Im no pro, but what i see is your caught up in your compulsions. Stop weighing urself, do something for your mind like yoga. Throw away your need to be a certain weight and focus on feeling GOOD on the inside. Imagine you didnt own a body...what would you do to relax and feel good? Also it sounds like Atkins bars are a trigger, you should get rid of them.
You have to question everything that isnt a natural fruit/veggie. Atkins bars are processed and im sure have a good amount of carbs 14-20?...not to mention suspect ingriedients. I wouldnt call Atkins healthy. Im sure what got thr OP was that brownie/cakey taste...any food that will give you that "hit" is sure to get you hooked...if youre a FA
Originally Posted by tjoseph28
Last edited by Vera; 06-25-2012 at 11:46 AM.
New comer-it is good to be here!
I am new to FAA. I understand the food plan quite a bit. However I am not having a success at implementing it. I will take the one-day-at-the-time suggestion.
I was 200 lbs one year ago and I have lost 65 lbs in one year. I want to have back the body I used to have at 125 lbs. I do NOT have however any motivation nor power to carry out the right actions to take to lose weight, but more then anything to increase my self-esteem and feel better health wise. I am 39. ( 3-4 years ago I was diagnosed with bipolar and had to take medications including Lithium. I went from 125 to 200 lbs. My doctor warned me it was very likely to happen. Lithium caused me to be hungry ALL of the times. I would consume 3000-5000 calories a day. and I was too depressed to go to the gym or any other exercise)...
I am getting married and wanting to fit in the dream dress should motivate me enough to diet....but it is not working!
I put on 3 lbs this week. I am eating to soothe my feelings...and the more I give in the worse I feel and the more I want to eat.
I feel a bit depressed...and I really do no like to see myself in the mirror. We just moved into a new furnished apartment and there are mirrors everywhere. In a way a good thing. Three years ago when I hit 200 lbs, I lived by myself in an apartment with no mirrors. It was good on one side because I did not feel such an external pressure but on the other end I did not have a "reality-check" mirror.
One thing that it's hard is that I am marrying a great guy but one who has no food issues. He is Italian and eats Italian food. So lots of pasta! He also likes his sweets, ice creams, cakes, etc... He can do all of this in a natural moderation and has 10% body fat....ah ah ah
the challenge for me is to have these type of foods in the house...it is like being an alcoholic and have bottles of vodka in the kitchen cabinets. TOO RISKY
I feel out of control. I am unhappy A LOT...I feel very unattractive...and it even causes me to feel insecure if more beautiful women are around especially when my fiance' is present.
Originally Posted by raffa
As a FA no amount of outside motivation could get ib...it must come from the inside, work the program ask ur fiance to help you by having healthy food in the house. Work on you first and foremost
As a male food addict i understand image issues. We all have them. I dont have any secret tips on what to do other than the food plan. I will tell you that this program takes what it takes. I am currently 3 1/2yrs. abstinent and am married to woman (who now has 4mos.abstinence) who at the time was not on the food plan. It was very hard. It would have been selfish for me to ask my wife to change her lifestyle just because i wanted to change mine. Her eating habits didnt make me a food addict i am born with an allergy to sugar/flour/wheat and high fat foods. I did make special shelves for my food in the pantry and fridge and i prayed like HELLLLLL! I attended the phone meetings got a sponsor and emailed him everyday my menu,gratitude list and action list of everything i was gonna do to help me stay abstinent. I will be honest the weight loss at first was my greatest motivation. I would love to tell you it wasnt but it was and i could wait for the one day a month to see how much weight i lost. I lost a total of 160lbs. in a year and a half. In that time however i noticed more changes in me spiritually and mentally. My prayers seemed clearer and more precise. When problems came during the days i had such a clear mind to handle them accurately and more patient then i had ever before. The depression and anxiety of just.....waking up! lol disappeared. The initial detox process was so hellacious although i thought it would never end. (So deffinently have a sponsor and meetings handy) I no longer have to leash out on my body for being my body. I am happy with who i am and my weight no longer dictates what a beautiful person God intended me to be. This is a gift this abstinence. Enjoy it embrace it and quit killing yourself slowly. Welcome home! Just stay here.
Your friend Josh
thank you for your kind response. I appreciated hearing you say " It would have been selfish for me to ask my wife to change her lifestyle just because i wanted to change mine"...that was very helpful to hear because I could not verbalize it as that yet. I just thought that I could at least ask him not to eat sweets in front of me to not trigger me and to not keep them at sight in the refrigerator and cupboards. This will help me a lot.
It is 11:00 AM here in Torino, Italy and thus far I am abstinent from sugar, flour, and wheat. Yes...I feel my cravings for sugar, bread, and pasta...and the funny thing is that when I ate them I could not control the quantity...it is standard to eat 70 grams of pasta per meal in Italy, but I would eat 150-200 grams per meal until I was stuffed...that is the problem...self-control.
I do need to find a sponsor but I do not know how to. I am not able to attend meetings since I am in Italy. How do you go about looking for one online?
i attended the phone meetings. They can be at times chaotic. But i was willing to hang on. After the meetings people exchange phone numbers. It was there i found a sponsor. I just had to ask. It may be scary at first but it was necessary for my survival in this thing. My wife has 4mos. abstinence now and is currently sponsoring someone here locally. Her name is Sashua and her phone number is 575 910 8179. Give her a call if you would like. Today when someone asks me to sponsor them i am truly honored and grateful for it. It is only by giving this thing back that we are truly free of the bondage of food addiction. Most people when asked to be someones sponsor will not hesitate to help. Dont be afraid. Remember this is your life at stake here. Take care of yourself you are the only one you got.