Halloween for me was the most difficult holiday of all. I was a candy binger, so it was my favorite holiday. For the first few Halloweens, I didn't want to be around. I had someone else give out the candy. Last Halloween, I decided not to give out candy. I gave out glow-in-the-dark bracelets. It was a huge success, not only with the kids, but also the parents.
Food for the Soul reading for HALLOWEEN, October 31st (p. 305):
Mask of Denial
Halloween is a day to wear a mask and to say "trick or treat". A day to collect and eat candy.
Before FAA recovery, every day was Halloween for me. Every day I wore a mask. I wore a mask when I went shopping for clothes, pretending I liked what was available in my size when really I would purchase anything that fit. I wore a smiling mask while behind the mask I was crying.
Every day I collected and stashed food, lying and denying the horror of my food addiction. I tricked myself into thinking I was fine and that everyone else was a little bit crazy. I kept my stash of sugar, flour, and wheat to myself. There was no sharing or caring. I would get cavities from sugar and high cholesterol from fat. And I was in fear of the almighty scale.
This Halloween there will be no tricks and no treats of the sugar variety. Instead, I will treat myself to recovery. Halloween has become a day of gratitude, in which I keep my memory green as to the horrors of my active food addiction.
For today, I treat myself to the good things in life that come from living in abstinence.
BOO! WE ALL HAVE TO WATCH OUT FOR THE SUGAR MONSTER LURKING AROUND THE CORNER AT EVERY FAST FOOD PLACE.....THIS HALLOWEEN
marilyn, day 2, AGAIN EVERY DAY COUNTS
I know that this is already posted in other places, but thought it might be a good reminder here as well in this section on Halloween. I was grateful for the meditation reading found earlier in this forum taken from the Food for the Soul meditation book. I also enjoyed the sharing and many meetings of the marathon yesterday, and just wanted to share that that will continue today starting at 4:00 p.m. and will continue till midnight on the phone lines. Plenty of meetings and also plenty of opportunity for sharing e/s/h, or listening as well as time to get contact information from others.