binging on abstinent food

[collinsco]

i have been through this 'cycle' before. the past 2 weeks i have been overeating abstinent food. the last two nights have been binges on abstinent food. the first of these two night i called my food sponsor. i told on myself and was able to quiet the demon voices of the kitchen calling me. last night however i did nothing to try to stop the binge - no prayers, no phone calls, no meditations. needless to say i feel terrible today, both physically and mentally. i understand i am human and not perfect and im ok, even when i do the wrong thing. i know god loves me. i still feel ashamed over the abstinent binge. just wanted to share.

[Vickie92]

None of us are perfect and addiction is amazing...it is cunning and baffelimg just as the book says.. My experience is that vigilence when it comes to planning my meals and staying within that frame is best sometimes ...sitting at the table and eating not eating in other rooms "closing up the kitchen" helps...

although the physical aspect of the disease is huge I have found the psychological aspect just as much a part of the recovery.. so keeping in touch with recovery is a very big piece for me on a daily basis..brightest of blessings to you and keep coming no matter what! Vickie