i have been through this 'cycle' before. the past 2 weeks i have been overeating abstinent food. the last two nights have been binges on abstinent food. the first of these two night i called my food sponsor. i told on myself and was able to quiet the demon voices of the kitchen calling me. last night however i did nothing to try to stop the binge - no prayers, no phone calls, no meditations. needless to say i feel terrible today, both physically and mentally. i understand i am human and not perfect and im ok, even when i do the wrong thing. i know god loves me. i still feel ashamed over the abstinent binge. just wanted to share.