yesterday, a FAA member called me. we talked a lot about variety of topics: 12 steps, food plan, abstinence etc. during our conversation, i expressed my doubts and hesitations about being giving into the mission of FAA. she paused for a while, and then answered, "whenever you have doubts surrender to your higher power!!"
this morning when i went to the gym, i found somebody else is using my favorite machine (and i use that machine all the time). i felt like skipping my exercise for today. then i surrendered and prayed to my higher power to bless me with the strength to stay back in the gym. i hopped on to another machine (which i thought was boring) and started working out. to my surprise, i did complete my workout and happily realized that i enjoyed it. i am grateful for these little moments of happiness. and i am grateful for FAA.