Here's a reading about surrender from Food for the Soul, October 30th (p. 304):
Let God Be God
I have lived most of my life feeling as though I had to be in charge of everything and everyone. I took great delight in telling God what I wanted and how God should listen to my advice. I felt angry and annoyed when God did not do as I wanted. I would rant and rave, cry and whine, and eat and eat. I was like a child screaming for a sharp knife as this loving and merciful God said, "No -- you are not ready to handle a knife". I screamed, "Who are you, God, to tell me what I need". How arrogant and entitled I felt. God loved me enough to allow me to reach a point at which I knew I had a choice between life and death. I asked for life. This meant I had to let God be God.
The gift of abstinence has taught me that I actually knew very little about what was good for me, much less for someone else. I am so grateful that God did not answer my stupid and selfish demands and that God allowed me to see that I can trust God to do God's job. I, in turn, can go forward with strength, hope, and direction toward a happy and useful life.
For today, I trust that God is in control of my life.